Does age really matter? "I'm sorry"

...I fell asleep that night, still FURIOUS of what happened!...





I woke up the next morning looking horrible...my hair was a mess and I had dark circles under my eyes, since I was only able to sleep for a few hours.





...My mom asked me to move quickly because I was running late for school...I immediately rushed to the bathroom to take a shower then I put on my favorite shirt and the pants my cousin gave me for my birthday last year...



Though I already took a shower and fixed my hair there was still a trace of exhaustion on my face. "Why do I keep thinking about you?" i asked myself quietly.


My anger disappeared and replaced with the feeling of disappointment...I was disappointed of how he acted...the way he NEGLECTED me!

I went down the staircase of our school slowly as I thought of what would happen today. Would I see him again? Would he ignore me like yesterday? A lot of things ran through my mind and almost all of them didn't help with my situation. Then I heard a cheerful voice...

"Good morning buddy!"

It was Jeremy, he's one of my best friends and probably the most loyal since he has been my best friend since I was in elementary.

"Oh...good morning budz!" I said as cheerfully as I could.

Then I just went inside our room telling him some excuse that I had a headache. I was at my desk lifeless as a piece of paper when our teacher came in for an announcement...Apparently classes were cut short today for the preparation of the arrival of some visitors...most likely important people. We were then asked to help clean the school and decorate the stage in the auditorium. I went to the canteen to get the teachers' snacks and relieved that I wasn't asked to help in the auditorium, since it would just remind me of what Luis did.

When I arrived in the cafeteria I took the snacks then started to walk back to our room. I walked as slowly as I could since I didn't want to be asked to go help in the auditorium. I kept walking and walking until I heard a small voice behind me, almost a whisper.

"I'm sorry..."

It was Luis! He didn't look at me he was just staring down to the ground. I didn't know what to say I just stared at him nervously. Then words were able to come out of my mouth.

"Sorry for what?!" There was anger in my voice.

"Umm...for yesterday, I didn't mean to..." He didn't finish his sentence.

"Really?!" I answered with still a trace of anger in my voice, then i continued "You don't have to say sorry,I don't have...the right to be mad at you." The anger in my voice slowly faded.

"Well...you do because your my, umm..."


To be continued...


-by lj-

Does age really matter? "Thinking things over"

...Lunch time was over and we were having an assembly...



...Most of the students were already in the auditorium...





I was walking towards our auditorium but I wasn't paying any attention to where I was going or what i was doing. Then I saw Cassie and she was with Brooke, they were both going in my direction.



I wasn't in the mood for their usual chattering. I wanted to avoid them for a while just so I can think things over and have a moment by myself. I looked down so that they won't notice me but it didn't work!



"Kristen! Are you going to the auditorium?" Cassie yelled in a very loud voice.



"Yes..." I admitted with defeat in my voice.



"Well then, let's go! You can come with us." Cassie shouted again.



Brooke just looked at me then smiled. We weren't very close to each other, I only knew her because she was Cassie's friend.



After a few minutes we arrived in our auditorium... There were still some empty seats in the front and the three of us occupied those seats hesitantly. The speaker then came up to the stage to talk about HEALTH... I tried to listen at first but then eventually I got tired of hearing the speaker's boring stories again and again. The speaker then asked help from some students to set up the slides he prepared for us. Then I saw him... He was walking across the auditorium, then after a few seconds he was in front of me... I smiled at him as meaningful as I could and expecting him to smile back at me.





But the opposite thing happened, after seeing me he just looked away. It was like I wasn't even there or as if he didn't want to see me. I couldn't understand him! Was he afraid that his friends would notice?! Didn't he want them to know who I was?!



I was furious but then I realized,who am I in his life that he has to pay attention to me all the time? Though we spent some time together it didn't mean he felt something for me... It was what I was afraid of...that he just thought of me as a little sister...



The assembly then ended... I immediately stood up without waiting for Cassie and Brooke. I heard Cassie call out my name but I didn't look back. I was too caught up with the anger and sadness I felt.



When I entered our room I was lifeless... then Cassie came in. She approached me with a curious face.



"Krissy... is there a problem?" she asked me with a worried voice.



"No! I just..umm... got so bored with the speaker's stories.



"Oh...well in that case do you have any plans after school?"



I then remembered that Luis said he'd see me later but after what happened during the assembly, I didn't want to face him... I decided to just go home immediately.

"I'm just gonna go home... I'm not really feeling that good." I told her quietly.

When classes ended, I rushed to get my things and go home to avoid seeing him...


To be continued...


-by lj-

Does age really matter? "Take care!"

...That night it was difficult for me to sleep...

...Thinking about him was agonizing for me...

I kept waking up until finally I became restless and fell asleep. Then after a few hours my phone vibrated...there was a text message. I was irritated then I asked myself "Who could be texting me this late?!"

Then I opened the message....it said:


"Good night! Hope you sleep well...take care!"
from: Luis
10:30pm


After reading the message my irritation instantly faded. I couldn't hide the happiness I felt and the embarrassing smile I did was on my face again. I kept imagining him until I fell asleep again ...

The next day, I woke up with one thing on my mind. Whether the text message I received from him was just a dream or a reality. I immediately checked my phone and I felt a sudden relief, the message was there and it was real!


For the first time I was excited for school because I would see his beautiful face.


After I arrived in school I went straight to my locker and there was a note attached.
The familiar acceleration of my heart beat came back as I opened the note:


Good morning Krissy! How was your sleep? Hope I didn't disturb you last night. See you at lunch.

Luis

I froze-up for a while then my senses came back and I was more excited than I was when I woke up this morning because now I was sure that I was going to see him.

Cassie called me and said that classes were about to start. Then I walked towards our room with no interest at all. I just wanted to skip classes and I just kept waiting for it to be lunch time.

Not one of our lessons entered my mind, it was all a blur... There were times I was asked by our teachers about our topic but I wasn't able to answer.

My excitement to see him grew more intense as it was almost lunch time. Then at last, I could see him! There was now life on my face and I was almost skipping to our cafeteria.



And there he was! Sitting at the table in the middle of the cafeteria. He was looking around then he saw me, and he smiled beautifully then I walked towards the table.

"You're late...." he said it with a playful tone.

"S-ss-sorry..." my voice was shaking.

"I'm just kidding you know" He was amused.

"oh..." that was all I was able to say.

He laughed and then asked me to sit down. He offered me some of his food but I refused and said I wasn't hungry but actually I was.

"C'mon don't you want to eat even just a little?"

"No, its okay..." I smiled shyly

"Uhuh..." he said it unconvinced of what I said.

There was silence for a while until I asked him a question that tortured me.

"Why are you having lunch with me? I asked him nervously.

He took a bite of his sandwich then stood up.

"I'll tell you later" then he walked out of the cafeteria.

I was then sitting alone at the table.


To be continued...


-by lj-

Does age really matter? "I miss you!"

...I was the first one to get out of the room...


...I was so anxious that I even hit the door!...


And there he was sitting on one of the benches outside our room, waiting for me.
As usual my knees felt weak again and I couldn't help myself but to smile like a little kid.
He laughed that melodious laugh I loved so much then he approached me. Each step he took made my heart beat even faster. Then finally he was in front of me.



"So are you ready?" he asked gently.

"Ready for what?" I answered nervously.

"To tell me about what happened earlier."

"That was nothing, okay?!" I was irritated but I made sure that my tone was soft.

Even though I said it as softly as I could I was sure he noticed that I was a bit annoyed. He just looked at me apologetically and all I was able to do was smile and giggle that was a bit embarrassing. We then sat on the benches outside our room and started talking.


I asked him random questions that weren't really important just to be with him longer. I wasn't sure why he was with me or what he was thinking but I was just happy that he was there for me. Then something just slipped out of my mouth.


"Remember when we were always practicing for our presentation?" I couldn't look at him while I asked my question.


"Yeah. I do, why? there was an honest curiosity in his tone.

"Well...I kinda' missed those times and...." I didn't finish my sentence.

"And what? C'mon, tell me...please." his tone was enthusiastic.

I just couldn't say no to him especially when he smiles and it was so unfair that he had that advantage over me.

He was still looking at me and waiting for me to answer.

"Okay I'll tell you. I,umm... well... kinda' missed you too." I knew I was blushing and I couldn't look him in the eye. I just glanced at him quickly so that he wouldn't notice and his reaction was the opposite of what I thought, his smile was even more beautiful and his eyes looked at me differently in a way that I felt that I could melt. It was a great feeling and even though I was nervous I liked it.


Luis then spoke "Really? You missed me?" he said it with a bit of sarcasm.

"Yes, I did." I answered hesitantly without thinking.

Then he replied " Its okay, I assure you that you'll be seeing a lot of me here in school." He winked at me and his face was very convincing. Then he added "Oh! I almost forgot to tell you, I missed you too."

I just froze-up after what he said.


"Are you okay?"

"Yes, I'm okay" my voice was weak.


"Well I have to go, my cousin's probably waiting for me. I'll just see you, okay?"

"Umm..okay. Bye." He then stood up and walked towards the other building.


My eyes were on him until he was gone and my heart beat accelerated again.



To be continued...



-by lj-

Does age really matter? "See you later"

...I had to get out of the car now...




..I told myself "I shouldn't be nervous I wouldn't even see him...



and I just kept reminding myself how big the school was....








I was already calm when I got out of the car and I thought the worst part was over,but I was wrong...it just started.






Almost every girl in our class kept asking me about Luis and what was our "status"! It was so embarrassing! I had to keep on looking back to make sure that no one that knew Luis heard what my classmates said.







I quickly ran to our room and wished that all of them would just shut up! But even though I didn't want anyone else to hear what they were saying, deep inside there was a part of me that was happy because this meant that I wasn't imagining the "SPARK" I saw between us. I tried to focus on something else like eating since I wasn't able to eat my breakfast this morning so I asked my friend Cassie to go with me to our canteen.





I was already eating and we were just walking towards our auditorium when I saw Luis with his classmate. It was like my knees were weak again and it was hard to breathe, I was panicking! And the worst part was Stella, which was my classmate and...well...you could say she has a tendency of telling secrets. She saw that Luis was approaching and I looked like I saw a ghost, then Stella just squealed like a little girl....





Luis didn't react and he just looked at me with his beautiful eyes then smiled. I immediately smiled back and I was screaming of happiness in my head, then he passed beside me. My happiness quickly faded when I remembered how Stella squealed, even though Luis didn't react I know he heard it and he was probably thinking what it was about. I confronted Stella and I was hysterical for a while but Cassie got me to calm down.








Stella kept convincing me that she was sure that Luis didn't hear anything. I just nodded my head and left the room. I was surprised of what I saw. It was Luis leaning against the pole outside our room! He looked even more handsome since I saw him just a few moments ago. He smiled again then walked towards me and he said "So what was with your friend?" one of his eyebrow raised. I wasn't sure what to say so I just replied "Umm...which friend?" it was obvious my voice was nervous. Luis then walked closer and laughed, then he spoke again "You know...the one who squealed when she saw us." After hearing those words come out of Luis' mouth, I wasn't able to speak anymore. He laughed again and said "Its okay if you don't want to tell me, its probably none of my business anyway but if you change your mind you can tell me later."






"Umm...later?" there was shock and excitement in my voice.





"Yup! I'll be back later, so I guess I'll see you." Luis walked away then he was gone.








I was so excited to see him again even though he just left. I couldn't wait for classes to end so that I could see his beautiful smile again...








It was so difficult to be focused when all I could think about was his face. Then classes finally ended and the agony of waiting to see him was over. I automatically jumped up my seat and ran out the door.





To be continued...



-by lj-

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Does age really matter? "after the 1st dance"

....As much as i wanted for the music to keep on going, it just couldn't...





and after a while the song finally ended and so did our dance yet it was like we were the only people in the room and all our cares just disappeared...but reality kicked in when the song changed into something that was "rock". We had no choice but to let go of each other but i didn't want to, I just wanted to be close to him as much as I could. I was mesmerized by his eyes and I couldn't think straight and then suddenly he spoke "Thank you, I guess I'll never forget my first dance because you made it unforgettable" he smiled the most appealing smile I've ever seen then he walked away. I kept repeating those words in my mind again and again and at the same time I kept on imagining his face, his smile and the way he said those words. I didn't remember anything after he left because he was all I could think about...





The next day we had to attend the closing ceremonies and I was excited to see him again. I didn't know what to do I just want to spend time with him because I knew it could be my last chance. During the ceremony we were together but there was silence between us. None of us spoke and it was probably because we didn't know what to say after what happened during the party. I didn't want to say anything stupid in front of him so I turned to my side to talk to his cousin Emma, I got really close to her during our practices because she was always with Luis and she was like a sister to him. Emma was actually one of the reasons why I fell for Luis she always talked about him and all his great characteristics and how he sometimes talk about me...





I just kept on talking about things that I didn't really care about just to distract myself and to avoid looking at Luis and make a complete fool of myself, so while I kept going on and on about a story I remembered Emma just listened attentively. Then finally, the ceremony ended and we had to go back to our respective rooms. I didn't want to go home yet because I knew once I went home I would just get depressed so Emma asked me to go with them in their room and I immediately said yes!





When we arrived in their room Luis asked me "Do you want to eat something?" he said it with much enthusiasm in his tone. I wasn't really hungry so I shook my head and just thanked him for asking. He then smiled and said "Yeah, right!" then he just laughed. I just kept looking at him making sure of course that he didn't notice.



It was getting late and some students already went home. Luis asked me again "Is someone going to pick you up?" and I could tell that he was worried, and I know I shouldn't feel the way I did but I was happy. At first it was like I couldn't speak but then successfully I was able to and I answered "Yes, my parents are picking me up and I think they should be here by now so I better go." then I took my bag and I was headed for the door but then he stopped me for a while then he said "I'll see you in school!" he blushed a bit and all I was able to do was nod.



When I was out the door I heard him whisper "I really hope I do". I was caught off guard by what I heard and I felt weak for a moment but I knew I had to keep going and thankfully I was able to walk away without him noticing how weak I felt. I could feel my heart beat increase and I just ran immediately before my knees completely give up and I would collapse.



When I was inside our car I told myself that what I felt for Luis wouldn't last for long because these things always happen and now that we won't be able to be with each other like before he would just forget that he even met me. I also kept thinking that I shouldn't get my hopes up because he was more mature than me and he was smart, handsome and a gentleman so I asked myself "Why would someone like him fall for someone like me?!" for a moment I was mad at myself for not being good enough for him...





We arrived in our house and I went straight to my room to think more about my situation and what to do. I was ready to ignore him if ever I do see him and just act casual like I didn't even know him. I wasn't confident with my plan at all because despite what I said I wanted to be with him and just talk to him all the time, I was very confused and it was like my brain was being scrambled so I kept thinking of a better plan and I just fell asleep.



I was surprised when I woke up because it was already morning and I still wasn't able to make a good plan but the worst part was it was time for school again. Now, I had to go to school without knowing what to do if ever I see Luis.











To be continued...




-by lj-

Does age really matter?

does age really matter?











some say age doesn't matter, they say what's important is what's in your heart...

that's probably true,well...for some people anyway...but for me?I'm not sure...

I'm Kristen by the way...I'm 14 yrs old and in a few weeks I'm going to be 15.

I remember it as if it were yesterday...it was the first time i saw him well actually it was the first time i "noticed" him. He wasn't really my type and to be honest he was for me the kind of guy i would never fall for,but don't get me wrong he's not ugly or anything he's actually really good-looking. The reason why i said he wasn't my type was because well...he was 2 years older than me and i always neglected guys who are older than me and i always wondered why some girls actually "do" fall for older guys. I always told myself that i would never be one of those girls because falling for someone older than me was just weird. Sorry...that was a long intro...lets get back to the story. His name was Luis and i didn't know anything about him. It was only because we were paired together for a presentation in our school that i was able to get to know him. During our first practice we barely talked or even look at each other then out of nowhere he spoke "You're pretty quiet, am i that scary?" there was sarcasm in the way he said it. But still it made me smile and then we started talking and laughing, at first i was just being nice to him but i wasn't really interested but after a few days passed I got closer to him and I learned more about him and I was ACTUALLY very interested.



I was never the best-looking girl in our school and i wasn't confident with myself but every time we talked he would always say something that would make me smile and feel better about myself. For example, there was a time we had nothing to do and we were just watching the other students practice their intermission for an event and i just asked him without thinking "who's the prettiest girl in this room for you?" i looked at him afterwards and then smiled.



His eyebrow raised and he didn't answer at first so i repeated my question, then he answered "Wasn't i able to tell you that you look very beautiful?"he smiled at me then winked.

I immediately blushed and looked away and i knew he was still smiling behind me.

Then our teacher called us to practice our presentation.



I couldn't concentrate after what he said, then our teacher yelled "Luis! Your speech isn't written on Kristen's face!" and that's when i noticed he was still looking at me and i blushed even more than i usually did.



It was finally the day of our presentation and we were very tense. It was my first time and i didn't know if i could do it but he made me feel that i could. All the presentations were finished and they were announcing the winners and i was losing hope when suddenly they announced our names as the winners! We were overwhelmed and shocked....i immediately ran to him and hugged him. I was surprised because he hugged me back tighter than i hugged him.



There was a party after the event and there was dancing involved. They said i was a good dancer but i never experienced slow dancing and no one asked me to dance. I was standing alone when i heard a voice behind me "I was hoping you'd be here,so...would you like to dance?" my eyes grew wide when i saw him, he was more handsome now and in a strange way i was very attracted to him. This was what i kept denying to myself but after he held me in his arms that was when i couldn't deny it anymore and i finally admitted to myself that i was falling for him.



After i realized what i felt for him there was a trace of sadness on my face and he quickly noticed it then he asked me "What's wrong?" his face was very curious. I couldn't tell him the truth so i just shook my head. It was the kind of sadness i never felt before then he spoke again "I know you have a problem and it bothers me so if you need a person to rely on, I'm here for you." then he held me closer to him and i felt something i never felt before and i didn't want the music to stop so he wouldn't let go of me.





To be continued....



-by lj-

COntinuatiOn..

Chapter 2

so okay where are we. oops! there we are so umm. okay there was now Crashing! AND bUGZHHHHHHHHH! the quatro chikas were okay and safe but their craft was severly damaged. look on the bright they're still gorgeous and still looking wOw!haha just kidding. the quatro chikas got out and wandered in the place. it was dark out there. but stars were shiny up above the sky. they don't were they were. they found odd looking big creatures with so many hands and with such full green hair. there were so many of them. there was even a magical light coming from a big box they thought. they were not familiar with what they Are witnessing. they are not sure of anything. there is only one thing the chikas are positive about. they were in another planet. a place where they are foreigners. the chikas. went back to the spot where they crashed. hid their craft using their invisible power. they wandered some more. being as careful as ever. as they were walking they saw pages of newspapers lying on the streets. they picked it up and examined it. they copied the images they have seen. they dressed themselves with what they saw in the newspaper. they returned to their craft once again and decided to rest. since they are now dressed like creatures of the unknown planet, for them it is safe. hours passed by so quickly, morning came.they got out of the craft. they landed in a field. a small town actually. an old man noticed them and walked toward them. the chikas were quite scared for the first time. but as they examine the man with their extra laser eyes. they soon realize the old man was there to help them.he was a friend to them. the quatro chikas opened who they really were to the man. they trusted him.the old man seem to understand and promised he would not dare speak a word.the group stared exchanging stories in the big mansion.there the chikas learned that the old man was alone in his mansion. he don't have any children to entertain him. with the goodness the old man had shown the chikas offered themselves to be his daughters. with great joy, the old man cried tears.starting from that day the old man was not alone. he now have a happy family. of course the chikas had been good daughters to the old men. they treated him well and took good care of him. the chikas finally found the peace and happiness they were looking for. :)

♥♥♥ Capture Our Hearts ♥♥♥

This February Fall in love!! yes guys the month that lovers are waiting for is finally here!! and i'm saying the hearts are all over the world tonight and for the other nights.Our friend cupid who in greek mythology, is known as the god of erotic love and beauty is very much ready to go hunting for those peepz out there who is celebrating the LOVELY Pebrero alone! and for those out there who is already taken, magisip-isip na kayo what to give to your mates!! you don't want them to make tampo naman diba! lalo na sa valentine's day. gifts don't have to be expensive nor hindi naman din nila kelangan to be branded. it doesn't matter if your gift is not a Gucci bag. don't be ashamed if you only have a Secosana bag for her. Brands like Guess, Dolce and Gabbana, Jimmy Choo shoes, Chanel, etc... sure is nothing compared to a special chocolate. of course it would be very special because you mismo was the one to prepare it! it may not look or taste like a chocolate at least you have put in great effort. i'm sure girls like us would absolutely be touched and malay niyo, ma pa "I Do" niyo ang love of your life. you can also prepare a romantic dinner or kahit romantic merienda. haha kahit isaw lang, the world would seem to stop because you are in Michael's eating isaw with you beloved! Love sure is blind, dahil as long as we're in love height,age,weight,skin tone or Last Name dosen't matter. At my age, i really can't tell what true love is. but of course i have once felt butterflies in my tummy whenever i see my crush.haha =) joya ko ah. pero seryoso mode muna. i have seen different movies and dramas that portryaed love. each have different stories to tell. it showed different angles of lurvv..might be 90°,180°,50°, and so on. what i'm trying to say (which is not about Geometry) is that we all have different stories to tell. but i guess all of them kind of showed the true essence of loving. It is something about you being true to your self. you being who you want to be or who you want to be with. and even in the end,if you and your love interest didn't end up together. the hell it's okay. (sorry, to those readers whom they think i've used such strong language, but bare with me cause i'm trying to make a statement here!)Live life to the fullest. love it. and don't ever regret! As what McDonald's commercial have said "At sa huli, kahit hindi naging kami, siya pa rin ang first love ko. <3